Monday, March 29, 2010

Palm Sunday

Reagan was in the church's children worship choir this past Sunday & Saturday and I also helped out. They sang in all 5 services, 2 Saturday night and 3 Sunday morning. They did a spectacular job and Reagan can't wait to do it again next time. The kids practiced for about a month.

Above is a picture I took of Reagan worshiping and 3 very short video's of the kids singing. The last one is the kids playing air guitar during a guitar solo, it was during the last performance and the kids had permission to also play air drums, it was fun for the kids.

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In this very short video you can also hear my friend Kandi singing in the background from Grins & Giggles.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Trigger happy

I have no follicles on the left ovary that are mature size, nothing even above 10mm. On my right ovary I have 2 follicles that are 24mm & 23mm and 2 follicles that are 15mm & 16mm. 16mm is the earliest size they consider mature, but they really like it to be 18mm.

I just gave myself the trigger shot and now we get busy and wait 2 weeks, also known in the infertility world as the 2ww.

Lincoln has his first karate class tonight, should be fun, I will write a proper post soon on more of my thoughts.

I have incredible peace that God has given me.
Thank you Jesus!!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Looking good

That is what the doctor said to me on Saturday morning. I have 3 follicles on my right ovary and 1 small one on my left. I have another u/s on Tuesday morning and hopefully we will trigger on Tuesday night. I feel really good about this and so does the doctor. We could still get pregnant with multiples.

Today after the church service we went up and asked for prayer, and that above all God's will is done.

This has been a long journey and its not over yet. This might not work and I'm okay with that. I have said before, I don't want to miss God's blessings. Its easy to get bitter, mad and even angry. I have been close to getting mad, but instead made a different choice....I praised God. In my happiness and in my sorrow I praise God. I'm not saying that I don't ever get upset or frustrated, I just decide that I'm not going to stay upset or frustrated for very long. I am a happy person who is struggling with the pains of infertility. I have many questions that may or may not get answered, I get sad and lonely in this struggle, the loneliness is probably the worst.
But, I have the warmth of Jesus at those low times when I praise God in my pain because when I cry out to God he comforts my soul that really can't be described in words. Plus I have some really wonderful Christian friends that God has brought into my life, and God has individually equipped these women to be there just for me. That is just how awesome our God is!!


Dr. Dale A. Robbins wrote an article called "The Power of Praise & Worship"
. This is what he says,
"The Bible says that God inhabits in the praises of His people (Psalms 22:3). In other words, God “dwells” in the atmosphere of His praise. This means that praise is not merely a reaction from coming into His presence - Praise is a vehicle of faith which brings us into the presence and power of God! Praise and worship is the “gate-pass” which allows us to enter the sacredness of His glory. The psalmist writes, “Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name” (Psalms 100:4)."

Amazing stuff people!!!

In another paragraph he writes, "
All too often, praise to God is something that many people leave at church, an event that happens only when they come together with other Christians. However, praise should be a part of a believers lifestyle, inter-mingled as a part of their daily prayer-life. At work, in the car, at home in bed, or anywhere; praise to the Lord brings the refreshing of the Lord’s presence, along with His power and anointing. “...I will bless the LORD at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth” (Psalms 34:1).

Praise is an expression of faith, and a declaration of victory! It declares that we believe God is with us and is in control of the outcome of all our circumstances (Romans 8:28). Praise is a “sacrifice,” something that we offer to God sacrificially, not just because we feel like it, but because we believe in Him and wish to please Him. “By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of our lips giving thanks to his name” (Hebrews 13:15)."

I love it!!! Thank you God!!
Next appointment is Tuesday morning at 9:30am, please pray that my ovaries haven't over produced and that we can continue with the trigger shot. (The trigger shot manually induces ovulation). Thank you for your prayers!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

quick update

Follicles are growing slowly, E2 level is low 38 so they are bumping me up to 100 iu of follistim for 3 days....next u/s is Saturday at 8:30am....ugh. I am reluctant to the increase in follistim, but because my E2 level is so low I am okay with it....I just hope things don't get out of hand.

Mmmm chocolate ice cream.. I wish he cou

Mmmm chocolate ice cream.. I wish he could stay a little boy forever!

An article by Joshua Claybourn explains why we wear orange and not green

Wearing Orange on St. Patrick’s Day: Go Ahead and Pinch Me

This St. Patrick’s Day you’re likely to take part in that time honored tradition of wearing green. If not, you risk punishment-by-pinch, an especially popular custom on schoolyards and around office water coolers. Thus, wearing green on St. Patrick’s Day is not only widely practiced, it’s virtually required. It’s hard to imagine the holiday without green.

But for a growing number of people, taking part in the fun means wearing orange. According to this increasingly popular tradition, Protestants wear orange, and the green clothing attire is left to Catholics. Thus, the color you wear is actually dependent on your religious denomination. Admittedly, this color tradition is not well known, but it has deep roots in Irish history.

Protestant Irish have been known as “orange” ever since 1690 when William of Orange (William III), the King of England, Scotland, and Ireland, defeated King James II, a Roman Catholic, in the Battle of the Boyne near Dublin. William’s victory would ensure Protestant military dominance on the island and has been a source of tension ever since. Although the “Orange” in William’s name actually referred to a province in southern France, the color reference stuck. This is why orange now appears in the Irish flag – to symbolize the Protestant minority in Ireland.

Thus, “Orange Protestants” have been around for quite a while, but wearing the color on St. Patrick’s is a relatively new phenomenon. The first group to take part in the tradition appears to have been the Orange Institution, a Protestant fraternal organization more commonly known as the Orange Order. Some members of the order wore orange in various parades on St. Patrick’s Day as a mark of defiance.

Ironically, St. Patrick himself would have been surprised by all of the fuss. Patrick wasn’t even Irish; he came to Celtic Ireland as a British missionary. But more importantly, Patrick did most of his work in the 5th century at a time when Christians were simply Christians, long before any division between Roman Catholics and Protestants.

Therefore St. Patrick belongs to the whole church, not just Rome, and people of all colors and creeds should take part in the festivities. Yet for some Protestants, part of that fun involves wearing orange. So before the green-wearing Irish among you get into a pinching craze, think twice. Some of us wear orange for a reason.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Update

The u/s (ultrasound) showed several follicles under 10mm on both ovaries. Of course we only need one, so we are doing a lot of praying that we have a lead follicle and when that one gets to a mature size and we have less than 3 other mature follicles.....bam!! We trigger and pray that only the lead mature follicle fertilizes. Things could turn out just like last time where we had to cancel everything. Next u/s is Wednesday morning.

I got
preliminary blood tests back on the blood allergy test and it indicates that I am NOT allergic to egg whites, egg yokes, or tomatoes!! But it could be a false positive, so we will do it again in a couple of months. If we don't get pregnant that I have to do the oral food challenge test. Tim thinks it sounds like a food network competition. My first challenge is to eat what I ate before I had my reaction. So, the doctor wants to start with the Breyers Ice Cream with chocolate syrup and magic hard shell. You take a bit and then they watch you for 20 min, then you take some more bites and they watch you....should be fun!!

Currently I sick and sound like I have a smokers cough. In fact I have coughed so hard that I bruised the top of my mouth. I am coughing up all sorts of different colors.

Tim has the day off today because his birthday was yesterday....Happy Birthday honey!!!
Tim got
mario kart and 3 steering wheels and band hero......we have been having fun today!
I get my teeth cleaned at 2pm......I love getting my teeth
cleaned!!!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Hello

I just wanted you all to know that I had an ultrasound today and everything looks good to start trying again. I should get a phone call soon as to what our plan will be. She just called and tonight I start 50 iu's of follistim for 5 days and then an ultrasound on Sunday which is Tim's birthday....I can't say enough how much I love that man...I just love him!!!

Tomorrow I see the allergist and hopefully be tested to find out what I'm allergic to.

I'm coming down with a cold and my head feels like I'm in a fog. I keep forgetting errands when I am out and that only makes more work the next day....sigh...

This Friday is Reagan's school auction and I'm in charge of the 25 table center pieces.
Below is what it will basically look like, ours will have just white carnations with one red mini carnation as the cherry with two neon pink straws. Still, its very cute and goes with our 50's sock hop theme. Tonight we assemble them all except for the flowers, I will pick them up on Friday. The pink and white in the milkshake glass is actually craft sand, its pretty creative if you ask me.


Last weekend we went to the beach with our shepherding group from our church for our annual couple's retreat. We had so much fun, wii games, scavenger hunt, the chair game, fellowship, growing in God's word and awesome weather.

Thinking about getting my garden started....soon, but not yet.

Monday, March 1, 2010

No eggs for me

The doctor doesn't think that it was a virus but a food allergy. He thinks its a raw egg allergy and I have to wait 6 weeks to be tested because I can't have any antihistamines in my system for the test....yuck...its allergy season!!

Meanwhile I am the proud owner of 2
epi pens, 1 for my purse and 1 for home.

I can't touch eggs, or cook with them, but I can eat cooked eggs, just not raw.

I'm going to call an allergist this week and set up an appointment to see what he thinks.

I will keep you posted when I know something.

What a ride

Well, on Sunday morning I had difficulty breathing and Tim called 911. The fire department was here within 3 minutes and soon I was in a fancy red ambulance . They were all very nice and soon I was feeling better and undergoing a bunch of tests. The ER doc thinks I had a virus because my neutrophils were at 80% when they are normally around 60%. But they could be high because on Saturday they gave me Decadron which is a steroid and that can cause the neutrophils to rise. I see my doctor today at 3:30pm and I'm sure he will refer me an allergist.

I was supposed to see my RE doctor today but canceled and will see her in the next couple of weeks.

My friend Jenny said that when she was 20 years old she suddenly became allergic to tomatoes and that also could happen with raw eggs. I think it might be either, I really hope its not the tomatoes, I can live with out raw egg whites, but fresh tomatoes would be very sad.

Tim took the day off and we are all taking it easy around here.